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How has doing this work changed you?

i am not triggered so much and when i am i know what to do

i know how to be in a feeling/sensation without feeding the story around it.

lots of joy – greater capacity for joy

a recognition of being home and content as a background field

i can go past my conditioning

i can let myself know where someone else is at without loosing myself

i can relate to the emptiness in anyone

i know i am not separate.

i viscerally know we are connected

i acknowledge the field

i know what is needed in any given situation

i have a greater capacity for love

i can tune in

i have skills that i never dreamed were possible

i can tune into so many dimensions

the invisible is accessible to me

i understand ken wilber’s wake up, grow up, clean up and show up stages

i am connected to my body and at the same time not limited to my body

there is more space and less overwhelm

What are we doing?

In case you are wondering what we are doing?

we really see everything from where we developmentally are! as well as our cultural, biological, multi generational conditioning : thus determing our entire perspective, our feelings, how we make meaning out of an incident, our actions and our decisions. this is why we work on development as well as waking up. Both are necessary! 

in the energy work we constantly touch into, wake up and develop both of these. It is not just about keeping your psychology painless and regulated. the more we develop the more choices we have and the more energy frequency we can handle. our connection to the field and support becomes a given. things that used to be hard work become effortless. we find ourselves saying “i remember when that was difficult or when i could not even do that, and now i don’t even think about it”. 

Death And Giving

beautiful meeting,
and i keep noticing when we give, i thought we were going to help deepal in death, we get so very much more. we learned a new way to die! really in all my years i have not seen such a clear, clean joyful way to portal into a new dimension. reset. here then connecting there. love and concern for those here without any responsibility for them. far far far out. what a teaching that we all got in our cells, our beings, touching into the possibility of it and even to be it NOW.

Reflections on the codependence/addiction course

What i like the best about this work is the no right or wrong of it. The reminder, caution of attributing meaning, falling ino holes, getting overly dependent or independent. A surfing, a remembering to resource oneself and each other.
but the biggest thing it has helped me with, is how to not wreck good things, good people, good jobs, not wreck wholesomeness. and to value detail and love simple, to notice the non toothache.
Also it gives me a language, a naming, ah drama is happening, manipulation is happening, denial is happening, a noticing short hand that aids being centered and available, rather than reactive and lost, a valuing of that for itself.

I remember pia saying, she wanted her life to be more exciting and now she’s just hanging on by her fingernails with the never ending discoveries of recovery. Ask for what you want, notice what you get, celebrate the no’s.